I wish I could disconnect from social media for good.

I really wish I could get rid of all, or at least most of my social media accounts. They are so horrible for your, ok, I promised to be as real as I can be here, MY mental health. On any of your random Spacebook threads you can find so much negativity, hate, criticism, and it's just draining. It's truly sprit and soul draining. I have a few social media platforms I am active in, and they have different things followed in them. I try to have at least one that is "good" and full of just my interest, that I try to be pretty quiet in. It is where I go at night to read. So, it's not too bad. About the only problem I have with letting go of my Spacebook account is my games.  I admit I am a gamer girl. Yes, there it is...there is a nerd alert. 

I can and do at times sit all day long, playing a game on my phone or my laptop. Depending on what device I am playing on is what I like to play. These days if I am on my phone, I am playing Monopoly Go. I am one of the billion people in the world that spins dice and trades cards, and I absolutely love it. Before MoGo came along. I was usually playing Slots. I like playing slots in the casinos in real life, and I try to go at least once or twice a year. Just for fun and something to do. I like to play the slots on my phone thought because, you're not using real money, and that makes my bank account really happy. If I am on my laptop, I am playing Farmville 2. Yes...I still play Farmville2. I have been playing for over 10 years now. 

If I were to deactivate or delete my account entirely, I would not have access to the game connected to the account. This is a struggle for me. As bad and as toxic scrolling social media is and can be, I can't let it go. My games actually help me. They keep my brain occupied, and they keep me busy when I don't have the energy to be physically busy doing some house chore that is probably a bit behind. They give me a purpose, and a reason to get up the next day, a feeling of accomplishment when completing a timed task. I know it is "just a game" but to me they are so much more. 

Why is it so bad?

 I recently talked to a friend of mine I haven't spoken to in a while. I haven't been one to reach out to anyone in months. I don't even leave my house unless I have to. When I do, I am not out for long.  My friend offered to meet for dinner that night, the offer was nice, however we declined. When I told my friend that I haven't been out of the house, nor really talked to anyone in months, he replied, that's not good.  I don't know what he is really meaning by that, I have found that is has been quite peaceful.

The more I have stayed in my home, with my love, and our menagerie of animals, the quieter and more peaceful my life and mind has been. I am not carrying the weight of other people's worries. I am not hearing the gossip and drama, of others, nor am I being involved in the continuance of it. I am not being looked at to fix things that are not up to me to fix. I am not putting others above myself.  

I can worry about me and what is important to me. I can watch documentaries all day with my love, I can spend all day cuddling in bed with my dog, I can spend the day on any of my numerous hobbies and activities I enjoy doing. 

I am spending more time caring for our home, myself and my relationship. Living a quiet peaceful and more private life. How is that bad?